Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder if the world is an illusion,

Portraying lights through a sustained delusion,

Then I wonder if it will remain forever this way,

Letting every memory in place and every trace stay.

Sometimes I wonder if beliefs can be strong,

Managing to survive when things go wrong,

Then I wonder if dreams can come true,

Keeping the faith alive when I feel blue.

Sometimes I wonder if there exists a light,

Which makes my soul wander every night,

Then I wonder if those places will be mine,

Which seem to be more than a shrine.

Sometimes I wonder if hopes are hallucinations,

Mere fantasies of hazy visions and imaginations,

Then I wonder if faith brings that intuition,

Bridging realities to the invisible world in fusion.

Sometimes I wonder where happiness abides,

In past, present or in imagination of strides,

Then I wonder if moments just come and fly,

Bringing bliss to experience as they pass by.

Sometimes I wonder if life will just move,

Come to an end this way being mortal to prove,

Then I wonder if it will bring something new,

Which might be just mine and remain true.

Sometimes I wonder if I am just a loner,

Intending to wander, seeming a groaner,

Then I wonder if invisible forces remain,

Being different, guiding me through every lane.

Sometimes I wonder if I dwell among the masks,

Which cover shrewd people behind their tasks,

Then I wonder if I am wise enough as well as strong,

To defeat the culprits on my own and be aware of the wrong.

Sometimes I wonder if struggles are between smiles and tears,

Each moment being a lifetime of battles to overcome fears,

Then I wonder if I can smile at foolishly planned strategies again,

Waiting for my chance to attack and see them getting destroyed in vain.

Sometimes I wonder if mistakes are continuous,

Proving me wrong without being superfluous,

Then I wonder if they are just overdone allegations,

Pointed to shatter self-trust using those accusations.

Sometimes I wonder if the world is materialistic,

Unaware of the depths while being pessimistic,

Then I wonder if the hint dwells in the innocence,

Struggling inside every heart to show the presence.

Sometimes I wonder if journeys continue,

When the road diverges leaving no clue,

Then I wonder if all roads bend,

To lead through journeys to the desired end.

Sometimes I wonder if I should join the crowd,

Follow what others do and feel proud,

Then I wonder that only clouds get carried in a cyclone,

The moon and the sun stay intact even if alone.

Sometimes I wonder if I am more of a mystery,

That will remain misunderstood, unsolved and become a history,

Then I wonder if it is just an idea which is hollow,

Propagated by so-called great minds which are shallow.

Sometimes I wonder if my world really exists,

Feeling as if it is only in my mind that it persists,

Then I wonder if there have been just few,

Who could believe in a higher world anew.

Sometimes I wonder if all actions give an equal result,

Weighing justice and injustice unveiling the occult,

Then I wonder if noble thoughts give way to bliss,

Creating a possible world of an impossible wish.

Sometimes I wonder if desires never end,

Because human minds follow that trend,

Then I wonder if hopes make hearts beat,

Curbing storms by a blessed retreat.

Sometimes I wonder if people forget their existence,

Struggling to find themselves for remembrance,

Then I wonder if emotions are what they possess,

Trying to hide from this world they want to impress.

Sometimes I wonder if I will win my battles,

To know how to blow off surrounding shuttles,

Then I wonder if I am that undefeated warrior,

Just like those who can cross every barrier.

Sometimes I wonder if I really belong to this world,

Fighting to prove myself through events all curled,

Then I wonder if I am the one out, meant to stay alone,

To change this world or to find the one that's my own.

Sometimes I wonder if I am just another tale,

Meant to live each chapter, glorious or pale,

Then I wonder if one day I will leave a mark,

Shown to find every way out of the dark.

Sometimes I wonder if the world will remember me,

With a joy or a sorrow when my soul becomes free,

Then I wonder if they will find me in every trace,

Because I will remain with my loved ones through an embrace.

Interstellar - Brilliantly depicts human emotions against space and time dimensions..

Interstellar, yes that's the name of the movie. Literally, the word means 'among or between the stars'. That's what it is about, which reminds me of one of the dialogues from the movie - "We used to look up at the sky and wonder about our place in the stars." But that's not the only thing which the movie shows. Thanks to Christopher Nolan for presenting the ideas of some probable, thrilling, unseen concepts in in a Sci-Fi movie in such a beautiful way, the Nolan way, actually.

Interstellar is not just about space travel. It is an amazingly thrilling blend of human emotions, the race against time for love and hope, and the faith that remains regardless of the hardships and setbacks. It shows how humans retain their behaviour and unexplained ideologies no matter how logical they get, whether it is explained by science or not. Yet, the approach of those emotions is scientific in some ways and that is what makes the movie remarkable.

It is the story of a daughter's undying faith in her father's words no matter how odd things turn out to be, even when she doesn't want to believe. It is the story of love between two or more humans, existing beyond time. It is the story of human rage and hopes, beautifully depicted in odds.

One might be awed by the amazing depiction of science, unknown planets and galaxies, the way spaceships work and how astronauts survive or by the perfect pilot-cum-engineer in Cooper's character. Of course all this makes one glued to one's place, but what makes it easy to understand is the human behaviour and psychology showed by the characters.

There are so many instances in the movie where one might wonder whether they are watching a Sci-Fi or an emotional movie and those emotions will make one feel the jitters. Be it the scenes where Cooper's attachment with his daughter Murphy is shown or be it the strong but emotional women shown in the characters of Dr. Brand and Murphy(later). Some scenes and dialogues are so beautifully blended with the touching music score by Hans Zimmer. His repeated efforts for the music has come up as a masterpiece. The background score adds to the feeling behind the scenes.

The dialogues are perfectly written and delivered by the characters and add to the value of the story. The main strength is the bond shown between Cooper and Murphy, much more than just a father-daughter relationship, it extends beyond time, space, galaxies and ages. The faith Murphy had in her father's words and promise, which she keeps believing would bring him back and that he would help everybody. The part where Cooper tells Amelia "When you become a parent, one thing becomes really clear. And that's that you want to make sure your children feel safe" is heart touching.

It is the depiction of the common faith human beings have in their loved ones, the foundation of love. Some of the best scenes are where Cooper and Murphy interact and where her faith remains despite the odds. The concept of love and hope over science is shown by Dr. Amelia Brand's character too, where she believes that love, an unexplained entity by science, might be unknown, but should be followed, because it travels beyond time and space, just like gravity.

The odds in human behaviour are also shown very well, especially, in the part where Dr. Mann's character is shown to be selfish to escape leaving others behind. There is trust between the astronauts and the robots which behave like humans at some instances. Bonds being built on the unknown journey, care for fellow astronauts and giving up one's own interests, thinking about humanity first, accepting mistakes and correcting them honestly, the trust built between Amelia and Cooper and the way they protect each other is beautiful, Yes, this movie shows it along with all the logical concepts.

Another remarkable dialogue from the movie by Cooper is " We've always defined ourselves by the ability to overcome the impossible. And we count these moments. These moments when we dare to aim higher, to break barriers, to reach for the stars, to make the unknown known. We count these moments as our proudest achievements. But we lost all that. Or perhaps we've just forgotten that we are still pioneers. And we've barely begun. And that our greatest accomplishments cannot be behind us, because our destiny lies above us."

The scenes explaining wormholes, black holes and time dilation are nicely done. The scene especially where Cooper finds messages over a span of 23 years and comes to know about his children is really touching. So, is the one where he meets her again, when she is about to die and he is logically 124 years old, but actually about the same age as he was, or the scenes wherever they feel their connection will make one get the feels.

The most thrilling part of the movie is the climax where the artificial black hole leads to the five-dimensional space of Murphy's bedroom, which shows time as a physical dimension and infinite frames in three-dimensions are present just to let us realize that the future can be made by humans. The part which gives goosebumps here(along with the beautiful soundtrack) is when Cooper realizes the importance of the unexplained power of love and faith and transmits the necessary data to his daughter, thus keeping his promise.

And then, when the movie ends, one knows that even though the father and the daughter saw each other for the last time, yet some promises and bonds, travel beyond time and space, because as quoted by Dr. Amelia Brand's character in one scene,
 "Love is the one thing that transcends time and space, just like gravity."

And one knows that this was the soul of the story, behind everything that existed between Cooper and his daughter or when Amelia, alone in another galaxy, is being approached by Cooper, because they are the ones who survived as they were, due to time dilation.

This is a movie where every second will be amazing and thrilling. And when one walks out after it has ended, one knows the intensity of the impact it has left on the heart, faith, hope and love, no matter which age of humans. It retains the faith of worlds beyond galaxies and fantasies, and the belief that humans will reach there, while sustaining their values.

And there is a beautiful inspirational old poem by Dylan Thomas, which is quoted at various touching instances by old Professor Brand's character:

"Do not go gentle into that good night,

Old age should burn and rave at close of day;

Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,

Because their words had forked no lightning they

Do not go gentle into that good night,

Rage, rage against the dying of the light."

Of course, I have already watched the movie thrice in two days just to get the feels again and again, with the soundtrack, on repeat mode. I had waited for it and I'm glad that it is one of the few movies that I would love to watch again and again. After those 2 hours and 50 minutes, it took me 2 days to come back to the present, because I was shaken and still felt as if I had lived a lifetime when I watched it, personally because some concepts were very close to me.

We All Belong To The Hit And Trial Approach

It has been 6 years since I left school. Yet, it was a coincidence that today(November 1) on the Founder's Day of my school, when that thought was nowhere in my mind as I had been thinking about the life I live now (which is far different from what I had thought when I was a student); I could relate a simple concept learnt way back in Algebra classes with the prominent aspects in my current phase. Weird, probably, yet it is the truth.

Remember Linear Equations in n variables and the Hit And Trial Method, where we had to keep on solving the problem till we got the correct answer? It used to seem like the biggest achievement of this world at that time if we could do that in one attempt, which rarely happened back then. And what if the answer was wrong, did we go and look for errors in the middle of our solution? No, we simply solved them again and kept on trying till the correct answer was found. Did we ever realize that we as human beings do the same thing in our lives as well? No, because even if we did the same to solve those problems, it did seem tedious and exhausting to us, and somewhere in our hearts, we would have promised ourselves never to follow the same approach in our lives, had we given it a thought. Yet, unknowingly, we still use the same method that we learnt in Algebra because somehow it got settled in our minds or may be because humans are made that way, be it the ancient age or the advanced one.

The practical implementation of this unnoticed approach had begun in our school lives as well, not just to approach problems, but to approach situations and people as well. How often have we realized that we always look for a fellow human being to practise communication in some or the other form, since we are blessed by the Universe to be able to convey our ideas. And it is a fact, that no matter how introvert/shy/silent/aloof a person might be, at some point one would look around for somebody to converse with. May be to share a simple idea or a silly joke, or may be just to talk about irrelevant points so that we can escape from the relevant ones for a while, or to directly communicate what stays inside our hearts. Don't we do that?

And in this conquest of communicating our ideas lies an unaccepted yet justified fact, that we as humans are always on the lookout for a fellow being, no matter in which form. The most obvious form is of course friendship. We all begin to find a companion around us, no matter how short-termed the communication might be. And being humans, we invest more of our efforts in avenues where we want a long-termed bond, no matter in which form, be it with our siblings, cousins, neighbours, co-passengers on a journey, soul mate, or a friend. We forget that we are alone on our journey and give in ourselves to establish and maintain those bonds, because they are valuable for us.

The same goes for our dreams and aspirations. Isn't it true that most of us had thought something to do in our lives which we could never do, whatever be the reason? May be it was a wrong choice we had thought of as a child or may be situations compelled us to pursue a different road than the one we had imagined to follow. We give in our best to walk on the road which we find and it might turn out to be the wrong one. Who knows that in those trials, we find the correct road which would lead us to our destination.

This is where we experience setbacks, disappointments, happiness, failures too, because just like those mathematical problems, getting the correct solution in one attempt is never the case. Sometimes, the equations don't seem to work out between them and us; at other times, we have feasible solutions, but they are not applicable to the situations we face, or probably we realize that the equation is invalid because things didn't turn out to be as they seemed at some point. This is not just a Linear Equation, because the ones who undergo Hit And Trials are not variables, but we as persons. It should disappoint us. We should probably give up undergoing the same method again and again, only to get broken and then to recollect ourselves, and try again.

I always feel that this can never be predicted. We are part of a continuously active energy sphere, the vibrations of which keep changing. We never know and will never be able to understand  how human relationships keep changing their dimensions. I term this as the concept of 'The Changing Dimensions of Relationships'. At some point, we are a part of it, at yet another point, we play a role in deciding this factor.

If we take a look into our lives, it is so common, and surprisingly, it is often neglected. People or wishes which had once been important to us may not be near us any more in the same sense. They might have walked away by their own will leaving us baffled. Some might have left us and others might have been left by us. People and dreams which had never seemed the ones to get along with may be the ones we now get along well with.

And further, there might be times when those which had once become strange would come back and be the same to us, as if nothing had gone wrong, while those who had been sometime with us may fade away. It depends on situations and our reactions as well, how those dimensions change. We can forgive, forget, remember, love, laugh, live, cry and bleed as per our desires; taking it as the result of actions by any of us. It is destined for reasons we may never understand.

We can only keep going with the changes in dimensions for relationships with people as well as situations around us. We are mere characters playing our parts, and getting used to whatever comes in the way, because one more thing to remember is that these dimensions are always changing, temporary, hence I call them 'Changing Dimensions of Relationships' with every single person in our vicinity or dreams in our hearts.

But do we give up? Or do we even change the approach? NO. We follow the same Hit And Trial Method and keep on doing it till we get our correct answer in any form. May be on a quiet evening like this or on a night which seems silent while there is noise inside our minds, we analyze back the equations which we had tried to solve at some point in our lives, be it our friends, relationships, aspirations or dreams. We may find that we as humans are very hopeful. We always try to look for a ray of light deep inside our hearts despite the odds, and we don't stop looking till we find our ray. And may be then, we realize that Hit And Trial approach of Algebra has never left us, because it is then that we remember that it is our journey, meant to be pursued by us, while we always keep trying to establish a bond with the people around us or with the dreams inside us, in an attempt to find ourselves, and we still smile at ourselves because we know that we will keep trying till we get our correct answer to the Linear Equation. Isn't it?  ;)